i’m trying so hard to be positive about things right now, but it’s so hard . . that i can’t. i’m not going to college this year, i haven’t been able to find a job yet, i’m being forced to lend money out to one of my family members, /even tho i need the money/ i might be getting my own apartment /stress/, my dad’s still in the hospital /it’s already been a week/, my parents are having financial problems, and i just don’t know what i’m gonna do with my life now. i just wanna curl up in a ball forever. i’m so useless.